I do a craft night every Wednesday. Tonight’s craft was to finish the cross stitch piece I had been working on while Mark was in the hospital.
It’s the Leisure Arts “Footprints In The Sand”
I’m simultaneously having a panick attack and I want to vomit.
I really want to finish this. I NEED to finish this.
I want to throw up. This is the first physical reaction I’ve had like this. I don’t get this physically responsive to stress.
I manage nausea by barely breathing. I manage anxiety attacks by deep breathing. This is a bit of a connundrum for me.
And in the end – I think I’ll end up crying.
I miss him so much 😦