Specifically from 2pm on. It sucks. I am tired, overwhelmed, emotionally drained or on the verge of crying.
I still do stuff, but I have so much trouble getting myself going.
Mornings? Usually pretty good. I am productive. I am energetic. I get things done.
Come afternoon? The pain, the stress of whatever I had done that morning, any emotions I hadn’t had time to process… it all overwhelms me.
I want to hide.
I want to go bury myself in my bedroom and cry.
I want to avoid life.
I have derby tonight. I don’t want to go. I”m going to force myself to, but I don’t want to.
I need a good cry. I need to release some emotions.
I had to go into the craft room… I needed to find a card from him for my tattoo consult tomorrow. I wanted to vomit after I came out of there… it hurt so much to go through that stuff 😦
In the process, I found the creation I had done to find my perfect man… he’s fit it so well. It made my heart hurt so much 😦