The cross stitch piece I was working on. The one that caused me so much pain and anxiety and nausea that I could barely breathe.
I finished it last night…
There was some stress, some anxiety, I wouldn’t let anyone leave until I was done… but I finished it.
I’m going to have it framed, and then put it on my wall near him.
After I was done – we sat and checked out Bev’s wedding photos.
Don’t get me wrong – Bev was a gorgeous bride. She had a dream wedding. I love her and am extremely happy for her… Her pictures were amazing…
And they left me a little (ok a lot) sad.
I was looking at these pictures of this perfectly done, beautifully set wedding; this gorgeous porcelain doll bride and I wanted to cry.
He mother and father were there. She was there. Everyone was coupled up (that I could see) and I kept thinking… I miss him.. 😦
The other thought was that I couldn’t imagine being that happy again. Loving someone so much that I wanted to share that moment with them…
At that moment, I felt so alone… 😦
She was gorgeous. And oh so freaking happy. And I’m happy for her.