It’s 9pm, the boys are in bed. I’m about 2 minutes away from going and tucking them in for the night.
After that, I have two choices.
A: sit on the computer, wallow in my grief, talking to other widows & widowers and my friends… wasting time in cyberspace… spacing out on the TV or
B: paint, sew, crochet, declutter and generally make my home nicer.
Some nights, a lot of the nights, I choose A.
Tonight – I’m choosing B because I want my life to be more than sitting on my couch. I want time with my children when they’re awake, and I want time to myself where I’m comfortable just being.
Tonight… I choose B.