…. the man who sat down at my desk to do his car insurance and announced “I just had a stroke, there’s a weird feeling in my arm”
Really? Why why WHY is the man who probably requires medical attention sitting at my desk and getting car insurance instead of going to the hospital?
…. looking for someone in my contacts list and seeing my Love’s gorgeous blue eyes staring at me.
That made me want to go back and look at the last few texts from him. I still do.
…. the moment when my boyfriend turned off the music we were listening to to put on something his boys wanted to hear
That was something Mark would have done for his boys.
…. flipping through pictures and seeing him in the hospital
I love the look in his eyes. Even at the end, when he was desperately sick and knew the morning meant that he would be shutting off the machines, he still had that look in his eyes. The love, the devotion, just shone through every. single. time.
This is the first time I’ve publicly shared a picture of him in the hospital. This was taken 2 months after he went into ICU. I would have another 3 1/2 months with him at this point… I wish I’d known then that the time was going to be so short…
I’d really like for all things unexpected to stop showing up while I’m at work. I just *don’t* want to start crying here… it’s been too soon since I started… blarg.