My filter is gone. I don’t know where it went to – I had gotten pretty good at managing it.
Oh don’t get me wrong – my filter broke after Mark died, but I have been very carefully putting it back together since going back to work.
Apparently it’s malfunctioning again.
I have been snappish at home. I have been overly emotional, somewhat cranky and generally, not myself.
I’m not sure. What I am sure of is that my filter is gone and unless I keep my mouth shut (thankfully that never broke!!) I am prone to saying things that are not necessarily appropriate.
This is causing stress at home. This could cause stress at work.
Today’s situation is that a co-worker is having massive computer issues. She has IT working on it.
IT called. Twice. The second time, they just needed some information.
The co-worker is in a webinar, with her door closed. I tap gently on her door, not wanting to *disturb* but wanting to get the answer to the question IT had.
Two OTHER co-workers jump in “SHE’s in a WEBINAR” Yes, I know, I replied. IT is on the line and they need information. “THEY’VE already called and were told she’ll CALL BACK”
YOU deal with it. One of YOU TWO can handle the situation.
And I walked back to my desk.
The first co-worker popped her head out – I told her what IT needed and she dealt with it.
But the reality is – my filter was gone at that moment and if she HADN’T popped her head out, I don’t know what else would have come out of my mouth.
I really need to get a handle on my filter…. *sigh*