Because my son has difficulties that require a diagnosis (or he may not) but these are things that should have been addressed a long time ago – but Mark didn’t.
Or maybe he did.
I don’t know.
I just know that aside from when he was 5, Luke hasn’t been assessed and his output at school is slow.
I’m frustrated because I don’t know that I have the capability to deal with Luke and my two step-sons with disabilities.
And I’m angry because he died and left me to deal with this.
He’s supposed to be here to help.
Somehow – in my relationship with my new guy – I’m part of everything with his boys – but I’m doing the stuff with my kids on my own.
I’m somewhat overwhelmed.
I’m somewhat lost.
And I’m angry that he left me to deal with all of this.
I thought I was done with the anger.