Someone asked me how I was doing today.
I told him how my week was going.
He said… well… just “think positively”
It’s not about thinking positively.
How can I positively reframe my husband’s death? How can I think “positively” about an event that altered my life irrevokably?
It’s not about thinking positively – it’s about accepting the feelings, feeling the feelings and moving through the feelings.
I’m positive I won’t die because of this.
I’m positive I’ll get through this.
I’m positive the rest of the world will go on.
But I miss him like crazy and no amount of “thinking positively” is going to change how much it hurts that he’s NOT HERE.
So… the positive in today?
I didn’t throat punch a guy who lives with his parents, probably hasn’t had a real relationship… ever, and has NO CLUE what it’s like to have your life, your identity, your everything stripped from you in one last breath.
So that’s positive. I didn’t even rip him a new one. Or cry.
I managed to keep a smile on my face while I finished out the last 20 mins of my day.
That’s thinking positively, right?