School starts tomorrow.
I don’t know why that thought is just so…. unreal? surreal? to me.
I am starting school tomorrow for the LPN program.
I have given up my summer job.
I am going to be responsible, to a degree, for other people’s well being while they’re in my care.
But in the meantime… I’m in school starting tomorrow.
My brain can’t quite process that.
I have no cheerleader – my boys aren’t there yet. Maybe they’re proud of their mom? I don’t know. I know my daughter and older boy are, but they have their own lives and aren’t as involved in mine.
So I’m doing this… just for me.
The whole markandjane thing is gone. Forever. And my Metalhead Poet is not in my corner at this time… so I’m… just alone… in doing this.
I’m going to do it. It’ll be done. I’ll be an amazing nurse.
If I can get through the first 3 months.
I’m going to miss my summer job. But my life is going to change in ways I don’t yet fathom.
I wish I had my cheerleader. My rock. My support.