Yes and no. A lot of the time, yes. But right now? I’m bored.
There’s SO much I can be doing.
Homework. Working out. Crafting. Decluttering. Meditation. Magick. Piano.
And I’m not.
All I can think of is… I don’t know WHAT I want to do. I will do the homework again – might go for a 10 min walk on my treadmill first. But I am almost overloaded with homework and having problems focusing.
Crafting – several items I could craft. I have a couple quilts on the go. I have a robe to finish. I have curtains to do. I have a crochet blanket to work on. I have a number of WIP’s. But usually I do those while watching TV and there’s nothing interesting on TV right now.
Decluttering… that will take me either the rest of the night or will take 15 mins. There is no in between.
Piano… I don’t know what’s holding me back. I love my piano. I don’t play as much as I used to. (read – not at all lately)
But really – it doesn’t matter what I do… there’s no one to talk to.
I’m not lonely. I’m just bored with my own company.
This must be the first step in learning to like living alone. Maybe?
At any rate – widowing is hard. It used to be painful – now it’s just hard.