Nursing is a profession where you get intimately acquainted with your client’s body.
You learn about the things that most people are too embarrassed to talk about.
Colonostomies. Bowels. Urination. Elimination. Wastes.
The upside to this is I’ve watched a lot of it while Mark was in the hospital. The downside is that every new topic that comes up results in yet another trigger.
Today was dialysis.
Sitting in a hospital waiting to find out what ICU he’d be heading to because Lions Gate didn’t have dialysis.
Watching his blood circulate when he was on dialysis.
Off dialysis. Back on dialysis. Off again.
Wondering if he’d have permanent kidney damage.
So many triggers.
So many flashbacks.
Good thing is I’m going to get all out of the way before I see an actual patient. Bad thing is… I’m having them.
Memory is fine. Recall is shot. Until I step into class and something triggers me.