“I’m Pretty Sure You’re Worth Waiting For”

It’s been a while since I’ve had something hit me out of the blue and devastate me.

It’s been a long while since the grief overflowed, ripped through my chest and left me gasping for air.

It’s been a while since the last ugly cry.

If you are up to date on Grey’s Anatomy, you know Derek is dead, and it’s been 2 years and Meredith is trying to navigate widowhood.  The writers are doing an amazing job of portraying a young widow with children and portraying her realistically.  Ellen Pompeo is beyond amazing at this role.

Meredith has had some moments.  Some good, some bad and some ugly.  It’s to be expected.

In tonight’s episode, she had a moment where she took a step… and realized it was too soon.  And she freaked out.

And the guy she freaked out on simply worried about her.

He showed up at her house later that day and she apologized and explained and his answer was “Ok, you’re not ready, I can back off. But I’ll still call and I’ll be waiting because I’m pretty sure you’re worth waiting for.”

And that moment ripped me apart.

And the ugly cry hit.

I woke the baby. (Grandson visiting)

The crying baby woke the teenager.

And the teenager… OMG I have such an amazing young man.  The teenager came over to me and asked if I was ok and did I need a hug.

I took the hug.  And cried some more.  And explained to him that I just missed dad very much right now.

Because to him, I was worth waiting for.

Mark in Fruitvale

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2 thoughts on ““I’m Pretty Sure You’re Worth Waiting For”

  1. Kathy Snay says:

    Honest post. Been there. Hugs.

  2. Gloria Kozlosky says:

    Hugs from here too. Your last sentence made me cry. It’s been 1 year and 1 week for me since my Guy died. My guy, Mr.Bill waited 3 years for me; then we were married for 53 years. Don’t know if i’ll live long enough to ever adjust to “Lonely Widowhood” and life without him. I very much appreciate you sharing your thoughts and feelings with us. So many of them strike a chord, but it really does help. Thank You!

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