****GREY’S ANATOMY SPOILERS CONTAINED BELOW****
I am a huge fan of Grey’s Anatomy. It’s the only show I have watched since day one. The show has never been formulaic, never been repetitive in how the plots are carried out, it has been fairly realistic and at the same time enough fantasy to keep things interesting (because lets face it, sometimes real is boring)
In September of 2012 – they killed off Mark Sloan. He was in a plane crash, had some undiagnosed internal bleeding, and ended up on life support. The entire season opener was watching him while it crept to the time where the machines were going to be shut off. And then they shut them off. And I fucking BAWLED because it was so close to home…. we turned off life support for my Mark only 3 months prior.
I figured I was in the clear. They wouldn’t kill off another major character like that. Then the next week, the episode was all about the month leading up to him being in the coma. And the turning off of the machines.
Ok. Done. Again. Can we get back to the story line please?
Seattle Grace Hospital recovered. The people recovered. The storyline became less dramatic. I enjoyed the show again.
And then… last night…. OMG last night. They fucking did it AGAIN!!! Derek was in a car accident. The doctors at the hospital screwed up, and he was on life support. And Merideth had to turn off the machines. And… almost 3 years later… I’m pretty sure this is just about fucking killing me.
How do you explain to someone who’s not a widow, who didn’t have to watch their spouse die how a TV show can rip you apart? How it can take you right back to that moment when the doctors are telling you there’s NOTHING MORE THAT THEY CAN DO??
The show managed to emotionally devastate me. All I wanted was to curl up in someone’s arms and bawl. That’s still all I want to do. But I get to carry on… because I am the parent for my boys, I am strong, I survived this once and I will survive it again.
Tears are healing. I knew that when I started watching Grey’s Anatomy a couple weeks ago. And I’ve healed a lot of the pain from my ex. I just wasn’t expecting this… dammit.